Confessions of a Christian Alcoholic with Jon Seidl

“The addiction is not who you are. This is not your identity. You are a person first and you are loved by God.” For years, Christina Dent viewed addiction the way many of us were taught to view it: as people being simply too lazy, too selfish, or too indifferent to stop. Then she became a foster mom—and what she saw changed everything. When Christina met the birth mother of one of her foster sons—a woman struggling with addiction—she expected to encounter someone aloof, detached, and uninterested in her child. Instead, she encountered a mother who deeply loved her son but was trapped in cycles she could not break on her own. That experience shattered Christina’s assumptions and launched her into years of research, advocacy, and conversations that radically changed the way she understood addiction, trauma, recovery, shame, and punishment. That has led to a nonprofit called End It For Good and the award-winning book Curious: A Foster Mom’s Discovery of an Unexpected Solution to Drugs and Addiction. And today, Christina and I explore exactly what she learned and how it can especially help family members who are struggling to love someone with an addiction. In fact, this conversation is deeply personal for me. That's because I get vulnerable about my own sister, my regrets over how I treated her addiction, and what it looks like to move from seeing addicts as adversaries to seeing them as image bearers in desperate need of true healing, truth, and grace. This is one of the most nuanced and important conversations we’ve had on the podcast, and I'm excited for you to hear it. Get Christina's book: CuriousWebsite: End It for GoodGet Gospel-centered addiction recovery resources and help: veritasrecovery.orgFollow me: @jonseidlOrder my new book, Confessions of a Christian Alcoholic We explore: — Why punishment and shame alone cannot heal addiction— The difference between addiction as a “moral failure” and a “moral compass failure”— How trauma, shame, and self-hatred fuel destructive cycles— Christina’s foster care story and the birth mother who changed her perspective forever— Why many families become adversaries instead of partners in recovery— The role the church has played in misunderstanding addiction— Why practical tools, therapy, treatment, and community matter alongside spiritual healing— How churches can become places for Gospel-centered recovery instead of outsourcing it— The devastating impact fentanyl has had on relapse and overdose deaths— Why people in recovery are often some of the bravest and most compassionate people Christina has ever met— The importance of helping people “run toward the light” instead of merely focusing on darknessSupport the Show: https://www.jonseidl.com/ Discover more Christian podcasts at lifeaudio.com and inquire about advertising opportunities at lifeaudio.com/contact-us.

“In success, I sought to self-medicate. In failure, I sought to self-medicate.” From the outside, Travis Blakeley had the kind of life many people would envy. He grew up in an affluent area of Dallas, attended a prestigious school, followed Jesus, worked in professional basketball as a coach, executive, and broadcaster, and built the picture-perfect life in the suburbs with his wife and children. But underneath the success was a growing alcohol addiction that had quietly attached itself to nearly every area of his life. But as Travis explains in this episode, alcohol was never really the root issue. What began with trauma and escapism eventually turned into doing things he said he'd never do, manipulation, secrecy, and desperation. He drank before basketball games. He got drunk while doing television broadcasts. He hid vodka in ponds behind his house. He walked miles on crutches to buy booze before 7 a.m. And eventually, after years of avoiding consequences and convincing himself he still had control, he found himself standing on a bridge overlooking a Texas highway contemplating how to end it all. What makes this conversation especially powerful to me is that Travis once wanted to keep all of this hidden. In fact, when I first reached out to him years ago after hearing about his story, he ignored me completely. He ran, just like he had ran from so much else in his life. Fear and shame kept him from opening up. But over time, he’s come to understand the power of our stories—not just for his own healing, but because other people are introduced to freedom when we share where we've been and how far we've come. Travis goes deep. He shares how repeated attempts at recovery never truly addressed the deeper issues underneath his addiction, and why everything changed when he found Men of Nehemiah, a Gospel-centered recovery ministry in South Dallas. There, over the course of nine months, through radical vulnerability, accountability, Christian community, and a renewed relationship with Jesus Christ, Travis began experiencing something he had never truly found before: freedom. This conversation is raw, emotional, funny at times, deeply honest, and full of hope. It’s also one of the clearest examples I’ve seen of why sobriety alone is not enough. True recovery requires repentance and aiming for Jesus. And perhaps most importantly, Travis’ story is a reminder that addiction does not discriminate. It can exist underneath success, influence, church involvement, and outward achievement. But so does grace. Follow Travis on Instagram: @chefblakeleyExplore Men of NehemiahGet Gospel-centered addiction recovery resources and help: veritasrecovery.orgFollow me: @jonseidlOrder my new book, Confessions of a Christian Alcoholic We explore: — How childhood trauma and performance-based identity fueled Travis’ addiction— Why success and professional achievement actually helped hide his alcoholism— What it was like getting drunk while coaching basketball and appearing on live television— The slow progression from social drinking to complete dependency— How addiction impacts spouses, children, finances, and trust inside a family— The danger of believing “at least I’m not that bad”— Why repeated rehab experiences failed to produce lasting transformation— What made Gospel-centered recovery fundamentally different for Travis— How Travis now approaches the 12 steps through the lens of Scripture and the Gospel— Why sobriety is not the ultimate goal—Jesus isSupport the Show: https://www.jonseidl.com/ Discover more Christian podcasts at lifeaudio.com and inquire about advertising opportunities at lifeaudio.com/contact-us.

“It was such a relief to not have to lie anymore.” That’s how Jed Payne describes the moment he finally stopped hiding and came clean. Again. For years, Jed was a substance abuse counselor. He hosted a recovery podcast. He helped other people pursue sobriety and healing. Meanwhile, behind the scenes, he was spiraling back into addiction, secrecy, gambling, relapse, and despair. And the deeper the double life became, the harder it felt to tell the truth. At one point, he considered ending it all, convinced that was the only way to freedom. In this deeply vulnerable conversation, Jed shares the full story—from growing up in church and wrestling with purity culture and shame, to heroin addiction, repeated treatment stays, overdose, and eventually becoming a counselor helping others recover. But even after years of sobriety, hidden struggles slowly crept back in through “gray area” substances, gambling, dishonesty, and untreated pain. What makes this conversation so powerful is that Jed isn’t telling this story from the safe distance of having everything figured out. He’s in the middle of rebuilding. He’s back in sober living. He’s repairing trust. He’s trying to show up faithfully as a father, partner, and man of God one day at a time. And yet, in the middle of all that, he says something that I think so many people need to hear: telling the truth brought freedom. This episode is about relapse, shame, repentance, secrecy, fatherhood, recovery, and what happens when we finally stop trying to manage our image and start getting radically honest. It’s also a reminder that recovery is rarely linear—and that God’s mercy still meets us in the middle of messy sanctification. Even when we get in our own way. Listen to the Church and Other Drugs podcast Follow Jed on Instagram: @jed.i.amGet Gospel-centered addiction recovery resources and help: veritasrecovery.orgFollow me: @jonseidlOrder my new book, Confessions of a Christian Alcoholic We explore: — Why so many Christians hide their addictions out of fear of hypocrisy— How purity culture and shame shaped Jed’s early understanding of himself— Jed’s rapid descent into heroin addiction and repeated overdoses— What it was like becoming a substance abuse counselor while still battling internal struggles— How gambling, Kratom, Adderall, and secrecy slowly reopened the door to addiction— Why hidden relapse became spiritually and emotionally exhausting— The freedom Jed experienced after finally telling the truth— What fatherhood changed about the way Jed views recovery— Why recovery journeys are rarely neat or linear— How churches can become safer places for people struggling with addictionSupport the Show: https://www.jonseidl.com/ Discover more Christian podcasts at lifeaudio.com and inquire about advertising opportunities at lifeaudio.com/contact-us.

"The younger we are when things happen to us and the more serious they are, the stronger the feelings are and the more often those feelings show up.” Those are the words of therapist and author Kimberly Miller, one of the kindest and most genuine people I have ever met. Kim’s work has profoundly shaped not only this podcast, but also my own sobriety journey and ministry. Her book Boundaries for Your Soul—which she co-authored with Dr. Alison Cook (who I've also interviewed)—is one of the most important books I’ve ever read. It shaped the way I think about addiction, healing, sanctification, and the hidden parts of ourselves we often spend years trying to avoid—and gave me words to describe it. There are concepts and phrases in this episode that have become foundational to the work I now do in recovery ministry and discipleship. In this deeply thoughtful and vulnerable conversation, Kim talks about Internal Family Systems (IFS), parts work, trauma, addiction, sanctification, and what it means to invite Jesus into the hidden places of our souls. We explore why so many Christians struggle to understand their own reactions, compulsions, anxieties, and addictions—and why healing requires more than behavior modification. Kim explains how wounded “parts” of ourselves can become stuck in time, carrying shame, fear, loneliness, and pain from earlier experiences. She also unpacks the difference between “manager” parts, “firefighter” parts, and “exiles,” and why curiosity—not shame—is often the first step toward real transformation. But one of the most unexpectedly powerful moments in the episode comes when Kim briefly shares about a season during COVID when she began noticing some uncomfortable patterns in her own life related to alcohol, stress, and coping. The honesty in that moment is striking—not because of scandal or sensationalism or because she is confessing a deep secret, but because it quietly reminds us that no one is immune from the ways alcohol can quietly start creeping into our lives. Even therapists. Even ministry leaders. Even deeply mature Christians. Finally, we wrestle with a profound theological question: If we truly heal, why can’t some of us return to drinking casually? Is that evidence we haven’t done enough work? Or is it simply part of living in a fallen world with particular weaknesses and predispositions? Kim’s answer is nuanced, compassionate, and deeply grounded in both psychology and Christian faith. This episode is about opening the locked rooms of our hearts and allowing Jesus into the places we’ve spent years trying to avoid. Get Boundaries for Your SoulVisit Kim's websiteFollow Kim on Instagram: @kimberlyjunemillerlmftListen to my interview with her co-author, Dr. Alison CookGet Gospel-centered addiction recovery resources and help: veritasrecovery.orgFollow me: @jonseidlOrder my new book, Confessions of a Christian Alcoholic We explore: — Why "parts work" and Internal Family Systems is so important in recovery conversations— How wounded parts of ourselves can become “stuck in time” carrying shame, fear, loneliness, and pain from earlier experiences— The difference between “manager,” “firefighter,” and “exile” parts of the soul— Why curiosity and compassion are more transformative than shame and self-condemnation— What it means to invite Jesus into the hidden and wounded places within us— Why many Christians still have parts of themselves that have never fully encountered the healing presence of Christ— How addiction and compulsive behaviors are often connected to escapism and emotional avoidance— Kimberly’s surprisingly honest reflections about stress, coping, and recognizing unhealthy drinking patterns in her own life during COVID— The relationship between childhood wounds, emotional triggers, and adult behaviors— Why sobriety alone is not the same thing as healing or sanctification— How Christian community, prayer, and self-awareness can become tools for deeper healing— Whether some struggles and predispositions are simply part of living in a fallen world until final restoration Support the Show: https://www.jonseidl.com/ Discover more Christian podcasts at lifeaudio.com and inquire about advertising opportunities at lifeaudio.com/contact-us.

“The Enneagram was demanding that I look to it first, and only through its lens could I look to God second.” That’s just one of the revelations made by author and Oxford theology student Christina Lynn Wallace. For years, Christina loved the Enneagram—a tool that has become popular in counseling and recovery circles. It helped her understand herself. It gave language to her struggles, her relationships, her emotions, and even her marriage. Like many Christians, she encountered it almost entirely through Christian sources and believed it was simply a helpful tool for self-awareness and spiritual growth. Then her mother asked her a question she couldn’t shake: Have you ever really looked into the origins of it? What followed was months of research that eventually led Christina to publicly walk away from the Enneagram altogether. And there are some shocking findings, including one of the founders admitting to having something or someone take over his body while writing aspects of the framework. In this episode, we have one of the most nuanced and difficult conversations we’ve ever had on the podcast. Christina walks through the documented origins of the Enneagram, including the occultic and spiritual practices tied to several of its foundational figures, and explains why she ultimately came to believe the issue runs deeper than personality theory. At the center of the discussion is a bigger question—one that directly connects to addiction, recovery, identity, and discipleship: What happens when something other than Jesus becomes the lens through which we understand ourselves? This conversation is not about panic, shame, or cheap outrage. In fact, both Christina and I openly acknowledge that many people—including us—have found aspects of the Enneagram helpful. But we also wrestle honestly with the danger of allowing any system, framework, program, or personality tool to become an identity rather than simply a descriptor. As well as believing that our relationship to God is determined by a tool or test. We also discuss the tension Christians often face when dealing with things that may have pagan or occultic roots. Can something be redeemed? What does discernment actually require? And how do we avoid both fear-driven legalism and spiritual naïveté? Whether you agree with every conclusion in this episode or not, this conversation will challenge you to think more deeply about worship, identity, sanctification, and the subtle ways idols can disguise themselves as tools for healing. We explore: — Why Christina originally loved the Enneagram and found it genuinely helpful— The research that caused her to completely reevaluate its origins— The occultic practices connected to several foundational figures behind the Enneagram— Why identity and idolatry became the central issue for her— The similarities between addiction, misplaced worship, and personality-based identity systems— Whether Christians can redeem tools or practices with pagan roots— The difference between using a tool and being shaped by it— How Christians should think about discernment without falling into fear or paranoia— Why so many people in recovery and church culture are drawn to the Enneagram— What repentance and “renouncing” the Enneagram practically looked like for Christina— The danger of filtering your relationship with God through any framework besides Christ— How confession, repentance, prayer, and sacramental practices gave Christina the freedom she had been looking for Read Christina's research: Part 1 and Part 2Christina's Substack: The Battle CryVisit her website and join her writing courseOur podcast episode on The Screwtape LettersGet Gospel-centered addiction recovery resources and help: veritasrecovery.orgFollow me: @jonseidlOrder my new book, Confessions of a Christian AlcoholicSupport the Show: https://www.jonseidl.com/ Discover more Christian podcasts at lifeaudio.com and inquire about advertising opportunities at lifeaudio.com/contact-us.

“The only thing that had changed was the object of my worship—I went from worshiping alcohol to worshiping sobriety.” Those are the words of Brett Smith. For years, Brett struggled with alcoholism, eventually finding sobriety through the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous. He did everything right. He worked the program. He sponsored other guys. He carried the message. He went to meetings religiously. He even became the self-described “poster boy” for AA and a disciple of the Big Book. From the outside, his life looked great. But something didn’t sit right. As Brett began to pursue Jesus more seriously, he couldn’t shake a growing tension between what he was reading in Scripture and what he was preaching in AA: the language, the framework, the idea of a “higher power”—while it all claimed to be faith-filled, it wasn't really pointing to the true Gospel of Jesus Christ. Eventually, he realized that despite being sober, he hadn’t actually been set free. Instead, he had just swapped addictions and started worshipping sobriety. In this honest conversation, Brett brings a warning that many are hesitant to say out loud: “Sobriety is a good gift—but it’s a terrible savior.” And he unpacks how secular recovery programs—even though they may contain some faith elements and language—can lead people away from the true Gospel, giving them just enough to think they are fine while missing the mark where it matters most. This episode isn’t an attack. Instead, it’s an invitation to more. To go beyond a program. To shoot for Jesus and get sobriety thrown in. To not miss the main thing for a good thing. To get the most flourishing and fulfilled life both now and in eternity. And it comes from someone who nearly missed out on those things because he had settled for sobriety. Is there a place for AA? For 12 steps? For programs? What is Gospel-centered recovery? Should Christians avoid AA, or can it be helpful? What about Celebrate Recovery? Why is sobriety an insufficient goal? Brett answers those questions and more honestly and compassionately. If you’ve ever felt like something was missing in your sobriety, if AA or the 12 steps haven't resonated, or if you’re curious about Gospel-centered recovery—this conversation is for you. We explore: — Brett’s journey from early drinking to full-blown alcoholism— His experience with Alcoholics Anonymous and becoming the “poster boy” for the program— Why sobriety alone didn’t resolve the deeper issues in his life— The shift from worshiping alcohol to worshiping recovery itself— His growing tension with the idea of a “higher power”— A biblical look at the 12 steps and their theological framework— Should Christians avoid AA?— What about Celebrate Recovery?— What Gospel-centered recovery actually looks like— Why the ultimate goal is not sobriety but Jesus Reach out to Brett: @basmith444Get Gospel-centered addiction recovery resources and help: veritasrecovery.orgFollow me: @jonseidlOrder my new book, Confessions of a Christian AlcoholicSupport the Show: https://www.jonseidl.com/ Discover more Christian podcasts at lifeaudio.com and inquire about advertising opportunities at lifeaudio.com/contact-us.

Welcome to the first ever bonus episode of the Confessions podcast! I'm trying something new, and I'm excited to hear what you think. On this special episode, you’re going to hear me on the other side of the mic—instead of interviewing someone, I'm being interviewed. The interviewer? My good friend Christy Osborne, host of the Love Life Sober podcast. In fact, this is actually taken from an episode of her podcast that we did recently, but I loved it so much that I wanted to share it with you. (By the way, go subscribe to her podcast here. You won't regret it!) Christy and I met a couple years ago when we were both invited into a community of sobriety writers. Since then, we’ve met every month for encouragement, advice, accountability, and friendship. Over time, it became clear that Christy and I are very aligned in what we believe about recovery, sobriety, and ultimately, Jesus. In the end, we are both passionate that the goal of recovery can't just be sobriety. Instead, the goal has to be Jesus. When that happens, you get both sobriety and the most flourishing and fulfilled life—both now and in eternity. In this conversation, you’ll hear us wrestle through that idea together. You’ll also hear me tell my story, but in a slightly different way and context. Finally, you'll get a peek into Christy’s heart, her ministry, and the work she’s doing through her online community. So while this may feel a little different, I think it’s going to be incredibly valuable.Oh, and you'll hear us both talk about something called the Aligned Conference. We are really excited about it! This September, you can join both of us on the Eastern shores of Like Michigan as we do a deep dive into Gospel-centered recovery with some of our closest friends. It's going to be a great time! Just go to alignedconference.org and get your tickets before they sell out. See you there!Help keep this podcast going: Make a tax-deductible donation here Join Christy's Love Life Sober communityOrder Christy’s book, Love Life SoberConnect on Instagram: @lovelifesoberwithchristyGet addiction recovery resources and help: veritasrecovery.orgFollow me: @jonseidlOrder my new book, Confessions of a Christian AlcoholicSupport the Show: https://www.jonseidl.com/ Discover more Christian podcasts at lifeaudio.com and inquire about advertising opportunities at lifeaudio.com/contact-us.

“I didn’t want to be sober. I wanted to be free. True freedom is only found in Jesus Christ.” Ian Faulkner looked like he had everything going for him. He grew up in the Church, became one of the top-ranked soccer players in his area, and even played professionally for the Los Angeles Lazers. From the outside, it was the kind of story many people chase: fame, recognition, success, and the promise of more. But underneath it all, something was off. See, soccer wasn’t just something Ian loved, it had become his identity. And when that identity was eventually taken from him through injury, everything underneath it started to surface. The drinking. The drugs. The isolation. The questions he couldn’t answer. “Why am I alone in a hotel room corner weeping? God, why?” In this conversation, Ian walks through the unraveling that followed—from chasing the highs of the world to spiraling into addiction, multiple DUIs, and moments where his life nearly ended. He even opens up about childhood trauma he worked so hard to suppress. But what makes his story so powerful isn’t just how far he fell, it’s what God did in the midst of it. What resulted wasn't sobriety. In fact, Ian came to realize that sobriety was actually quite empty by itself. He wanted more. He needed more. He needed Jesus. And that changed everything. Today, Ian is a pastor leading a growing, Gospel-centered recovery ministry in California called Restoration Recovery. He helps others find the same freedom he was once so desperate for, and lives by a powerful mantra: "When we recover loudly in Christ, we contribute to keeping others from dying quietly without him." His story is a reminder that addiction doesn't follow a neat path, and that recovery is about more than just quitting something. It’s about what—or who—you’re ultimately living for. Help keep this podcast going: Make a tax-deductible donation here We explore: — How success, discipline, and even good things like sports and church can become false identities— Ian’s journey from professional soccer and chasing recognition to addiction and isolation— The role injury played in exposing deeper heart issues and accelerating his downward spiral— Why addiction isn’t about the substance—but about what we’re trying to escape— The moment everything collapsed, including multiple DUIs and near-death experiences— How unresolved trauma, including childhood abuse, shaped his patterns of behavior— The difference between sobriety and true freedom—and why that distinction matters— What full surrender to Jesus actually looked like in Ian’s life— How God used recovery, jail, and brokenness to prepare him for ministry— The origin and meaning behind “recovering loudly” and why it challenges traditional recovery models— How Gospel-centered recovery leads to deeper transformation than behavior modification alone— Why finding your “why” is essential to lasting change and healingFollow Restoration Recovery: @restoratioinrecovery.mhcWatch Restoration Recovery messages hereGet addiction recovery resources and help: veritasrecovery.orgFollow me: @jonseidlOrder my new book, Confessions of a Christian AlcoholicSupport the Show: https://www.jonseidl.com/ Discover more Christian podcasts at lifeaudio.com and inquire about advertising opportunities at lifeaudio.com/contact-us.

“I knew I wasn’t supposed to do it but I didn’t understand why, because it felt like it was helping and I wasn’t hurting anyone.” That’s how modern-day theologian, author, and speaker Brenna Blain describes her addiction. Addictions, really. Because she didn't just develop one. Even after addressing her disordered relationship with alcohol, she went on to develop a similar pattern with cough medicine and stimulants. How? Because like so many of us, she fell into the trap of justifying what she knew wasn't right. During all of that, Brenna wasn’t running from God. She loved Jesus, she was serving in ministry, she was doing the things Christians are supposed to do. And at the same time, she was building patterns and believing lies that didn’t line up with what she believed or who she was called to be. In this episode, Brenna shares her full story with thoughtful and radical vulnerability. From childhood trauma and an ongoing battle with depression and mental health, to a real encounter with God that changed the direction of her life, to the ways addiction and dependency still took root. She also talks openly about her experience with same-sex attraction, how she surrenders that to God, and how that has shaped her reliance on Christ. She also doesn't hold back about how evangelical culture too often encourages silence while struggling, leaving people to navigate their sin on their own, as well as how the Church can become a place where those struggles are brought into the light and met with both truth and grace. This is a conversation about honesty, about sanctification, and about what it really looks like to follow Jesus when things aren’t clean or simple. Looking for a one-stop recovery resource? Learn more about the Tyndale Life Recovery Bible here. We explore: — The subtle ways addiction can form even in the life of a committed Christian— How self-justification keeps people stuck longer than they realize— Why addressing one addiction doesn’t mean the root issue is gone— How Brenna’s struggle shifted from alcohol to other substances— The role childhood trauma and mental health play in shaping patterns— What it looked like for Brenna to encounter God personally— How depression and ongoing mental health struggles intersect with faith— Brenna’s experience with same-sex attraction and surrendering it to Christ— Why evangelical culture often leaves people to struggle in silence— What it looks like for the Church to hold both truth and grace— The difference between behavior change and real transformation— How sanctification actually plays out in everyday life Get Brenna's book: Can I Say That? How Unsafe Questions Lead Us to the Real GodFollow Brenna: @bunonmyheadInvite Brenna to speak hereGet addiction recovery resources and help: veritasrecovery.orgFollow me: @jonseidlOrder my new book, Confessions of a Christian AlcoholicGet the Tyndale Life Recovery Bible: https://hubs.la/Q041HjWm0Support the Show: https://www.jonseidl.com/ Discover more Christian podcasts at lifeaudio.com and inquire about advertising opportunities at lifeaudio.com/contact-us.

“I knew all the right things to say about Jesus, but I was living a completely different life when no one was looking.” That’s how Andy describes the reality of leading in the Church while quietly unraveling behind the scenes. Andy wasn’t just a Christian struggling in private—he was a pastor. He was preaching, leading, and helping others follow Jesus, all while hiding a life that didn’t match what people saw. Alcohol had a grip on him, but it didn’t stop there. What began as hidden drinking eventually gave way to deeper compromise, including an affair that would force everything into the light. In this episode, Andy walks through what it’s like to carry that kind of double life—not just the behaviors, but the weight of knowing the truth, teaching the truth, and still living in contradiction to it. There’s the pressure to maintain an image, the isolation that comes with secrecy, and the slow erosion of self that builds until there’s nowhere left to hide. He also brings us through the moment everything came to the light. The moment he thought would destroy him that actually became his door to freedom: his confession. He details what it was like to sit down with his wife and tell her everything—not just the drinking, but the affair. And he’s honest about the fear, the exposure, and the sense that everything he had built was about to collapse. And yet, he's also open about what happened after. The consequences, yes, but also the reality of how God met him and the freedom he experienced as a result of radical vulnerability. Looking for a one-stop recovery resource? Learn more about the Tyndale Life Recovery Bible here. We explore: — How you can know the truth about Jesus and still live a completely different life in secret— Why hidden addiction thrives in environments where image matters most— The quiet tension of leading spiritually while falling apart privately— How secrecy and isolation don’t just hide addiction—they feed it— Why behavior change alone never touches what’s really driving it— The deeper desires underneath addiction that rarely get addressed— What actually happens when everything finally comes into the light— Why confession feels like the end—but becomes the turning point— The difference between managing sin and being transformed at the root— How the Gospel confronts both what you do and what you love Follow Andy's Podcast on YouTube, Spotify, or AppleGet addiction recovery resources and help: veritasrecovery.orgFollow me: @jonseidlOrder my new book, Confessions of a Christian AlcoholicGet the Tyndale Life Recovery Bible: https://hubs.la/Q041HjWm0Support the Show: https://www.jonseidl.com/ Discover more Christian podcasts at lifeaudio.com and inquire about advertising opportunities at lifeaudio.com/contact-us.